It’s been four days since my last post here, and it goes without saying that this kind of surprises me – I didn’t check on it, but as far as I can remember, that’s the longest time without a new entry on this blog.
What have I done during the last couple of days that prevented me from posting?
Well, on Friday I went to see Crash, the movie which won the Academy Award for Best Motion Picture this year, and I absolutely loved it. Surprisingly complex for a Hollywood movie, and no black-and-white story where you get told who’s the bad guy and who’s the hero – they’re all bad guys and heroes, just like in real life where nobody is simply good or bad. After that I went to the Aula in the Grund, as there were some towers waiting to be emptied. :)
On Saturday I went to the funeral of a friend’s dad. It was crushing: the whole town was in some sort of emergency situation, the streets were blocked to far out of the town because of all the cars, hundreds of people were standing in front of the coffin. What struck me most was a girl, about 10 years old, who was standing in front of me, and had her hand on her elder brother’s shoulder who couldn’t stop crying. When the eulogy began, the girl began crying too, but she still tried comforting her brother – I have never seen anything like it, the agony in that girl’s eyes was hauntingly heart rending. I had to swallow hard more than once not to cry myself. Then I saw the priest who had held the requiem of two friends’ late mother a few months ago. He was standing some twenty meters away from me and was there as a friend of the deceased. He seemed to be a nervous wreck. Yes, he lost a friend, but shouldn’t he as a priest be happy for his friend to be with God now? I do not mean and I do not have a right to judge his faith in any way, but it was a thought that crossed my mind when I saw him – as he had preached exactly that a few months ago.
Sunday was pretty much doing nothing, and Monday was a boring school day – except for the afternoon, where I’d been sitting at the cafe Art Scène for two hours and finally wrote my real first short-story (three typed pages). I still have to read over it again, but I’m surely going to publish it. And I submitted a poem to the editorial staff of The ICS, which is the English school magazine at the University.
Today was yet another school day, two classes with Mr Weber, true, but I simply felt too tired. Apart from that, I finally got my 1.5gb webspace for naischtnotz.net and am going to put the site back online either tonight (which I doubt though as I already have other plans) or tomorrow late afternoon (which is far more likely).
The only thing left then is a short note for those of you not checking on the sadautumn mainsite regularly (which I perfectly understand as there aren’t updates very often) but interested in The Fallen: I’ve added three poems. So slowly but surely the end is coming (which is in fact already written down and is three poems long).